The past few weeks have been a very difficult and confusing time for me. I've been thinking a lot about my life, the choices I've made, my feelings about things, what things I did right and what things I did wrong. I finally get the answer, 4 in the morning.
Life : Nothing in my life has been or will every be About
Friends : I don't think having a huge friends list matters, its who talks to me or makes the effort to contact me when things get me down or when i just need someone to talk too is important to me. I could have 300 people on my list.... and possibly only few of them willing to shared a piece of my life with. Those are the important ones to me.
Love : I was putting myself through a kind of repeated rejection. Always wanting someone to love me and make me feel like a whole person again, but all it did was lower my self esteem and make me feel worse. I totally believe that every thing happened for a reason. Allah s.w.t knows what's the best for us. We always want the sunshine but Allah s.w.t knows there must be rain.
Career : What if I have chosen the wrong major in college? What if my job now is not the right career for me? What if I start a business and end up hating it? Think again, I don’t have to be perfect, I don’t even have to be right at first. I know I’ll get much better results in the long run if I’m willing to fail. We will never know until we commit, I believe.
We always want the laughter
And the merriment of cheer
But our hearts will lose their tenderness
If we never shed a tear
Allah tests us often
With suffering and with sorrow
He tests us not to punish us
But to help us meet tomorrow
For growing trees are strengthened
If they withstand the storm
And the sharp cut of the chisel
Gave the marble grace and form
Allah tests us often
And for every pain He gives to us
Provided we’re patient
Is followed by rich again
So whenever we feel that everything is going wrong
It is just Allah’s way
To make our spirit’s strong =)
