Hello again, after a long HIATUS!

Hello December!

Just to give you all a brief update : Well, I'm still alive! =)

It was a very2 hectic times for the past few months. Work and life commitments seems more important lately than expressing feelings in blog.

So many things to share but I just don't know where to start.

Later bila ada mood i'll blog again.

Kepala kusut. Nak tido awal. Tata and Nite!

WRONG OR RIGHT?

The past few weeks have been a very difficult and confusing time for me. I've been thinking a lot about my life, the choices I've made, my feelings about things, what things I did right and what things I did wrong. I finally get the answer, 4 in the morning.

Life : Nothing in my life has been or will every be About Me. I don’t see how people can say that, when the world doesn’t revolve around one person, but many others.

Friends : I don't think having a huge friends list matters, its who talks to me or makes the effort to contact me when things get me down or when i just need someone to talk too is important to me. I could have 300 people on my list.... and possibly only few of them willing to shared a piece of my life with. Those are the important ones to me.

Love : I was putting myself through a kind of repeated rejection. Always wanting someone to love me and make me feel like a whole person again, but all it did was lower my self esteem and make me feel worse. I totally believe that every thing happened for a reason. Allah s.w.t knows what's the best for us. We always want the sunshine but Allah s.w.t knows there must be rain.

Career : What if I have chosen the wrong major in college? What if my job now is not the right career for me? What if I start a business and end up hating it? Think again, I don’t have to be perfect, I don’t even have to be right at first. I know I’ll get much better results in the long run if I’m willing to fail. We will never know until we commit, I believe.

We always want the laughter

And the merriment of cheer
But our hearts will lose their tenderness
If we never shed a tear

Allah tests us often
With suffering and with sorrow
He tests us not to punish us
But to help us meet tomorrow

For growing trees are strengthened
If they withstand the storm
And the sharp cut of the chisel
Gave the marble grace and form

Allah tests us often
And for every pain He gives to us
Provided we’re patient
Is followed by rich again

So whenever we feel that everything is going wrong
It is just Allah’s way
To make our spirit’s strong =)

A Perfect Beginning : Sleepy Monday

I'm so sleepy today. Coffee doesn't work. A nap on a Monday, ohh how wonderful would that be! (tiba-tiba teringat lagu Justin Bieber, baby baby baby ohhhh)

Ok What Should I do When I Feel Sleepy But I Have A Lot Of Things To Do?

Check this out, dapat neyh from "BlurtIt". Bole pakai ke?

• Take an exercise break. Do some cardiology exercises, like running in place, or jumping jacks for 10 minutes (jumping jacks? ok ke? macam glamor je tibe2 melompat lompat)
• Eat something light, but healthy (oreo dalam laci? something light, yes. healthy, no. of course)
• Drink some fruit juice, and stretch throughly (leceh nye fruit juice bagai)
• Caffeinated beverages work for the short run, but can make u sleepier when they went off (2 tin nescafe da minum this morning, memang betul, ngantuk lagi)
• Get some cool air circulating, and breathe deepy (ahahhh i like this one. ala2 tai chi gitu la kan? ok off to tasik titiwangsa - which is dalam mimpi, keja banyak)

Conclusion : sambung buat kerja!

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Tiring Weekend

I had a tiring but very happy weekend spent with family and friends. I bought something I’m looking forward to, not stick to my diet plan (makan banyak gila and really lost control) and who can beat starting a weekend with lots of new clothes? I am truly blessed. New clothes always make a gal feel good, don't they? Boleh melaram-laram depan cermin. Hahah! Ok off to sleep and will post something again tomorrow. Kalau rajin and kalau ada mood la. Hehe. Tatah!

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SUNYI

Isk isk isk hwaaaaa sob sob sob srottttt (nangis tersedu-sedu dalam hati) Hwaa sunyinye. Bukan sebab tak ada aktiviti on weekend. Bukan sebab mama pinjam kereta yang menyebabkan saya patah kaki di hujung minggu (kaki tak berapa nak patah sebab kereta acap masih berfungsi dengan baik untuk bawak saya dan ani lepak minum). Bukan juga sebab tak ada steady boyfriend. Jauh sekali sebab tak ada anak. Ok merepek.

Sunyi sebab abang-abang kandung yang bukan dikandungi saya, tapi dikandungi mak saya dah berpindah jauh di rantau orang. A ah exaggerate je. Takda la jauh sangat. My first brother, abglong now working at Indonesia. Abgngah pulak kerja with Kementerian Penerangan di JB. And abgcik baru start kerja dengan Pakatan Arkitek Berhad, in charge project kat JB. Whatt?? Bosannn. But more to sedih sebenarnya. Tapi saya kental. Tak perlu buat muka kememeh. Cukup dengan maintain cool dan buat2 happy sebab dapat conquer remote astro.

It still seems so strange to have had my brothers all my life and then no more. Puffff just like that. Masing-masing dengan urusan sendiri. My brothers always went above and beyond the call of duty to help me. Dari belikan roti canai and milo ais (mcd sometimes), settlekan urusan bil 2 saya yg berlambak-lambak, helping me when Cik Kelisa meragam atau langgar dan dilanggar kereta orang..NAME IT..semua pon pernah buat. They are my favorite peoples in the whole world. l know I have to learn to let go and not rely so much on others now. I guess I crave for love and a close family so much that I feel sad and depressed that my own siblings are moving away. I'm so not ready for this.

mr dugong (long), debab (ngah), and pak tam (abgcik)..kerja je la kat KL! Bukan bestpon duduk JB and Indon tuh..haih. Takada orang nak panggil saya "birat" lagi. Sob sob.

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Sunday

Gambar di atas adalah hari Ahad saya. Bosan kan? Today bertapa depan pc siapkan outstation reports. Nak lepak keluar kereta tade. Haihh. Btw craving gila Starbucks Hazelnut Hot Chocolate. Padahal last Wednesday da belasah secawan. Siap ngecek cawan orang lain lagik. Dasyat. Macam nak chill chill chilly padi at starbucks petang ni..ani cepatlah datang. Saya mati kutu. Sekian.

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hanat day

Officially declare today as hanat Day. bunyi macam mencarut. saya tahu. happy+penat=hanat. *wawawawa* gelak sorang2 dengan lawak yang tak berapa menjadi. mesti ada orang kata dalam hati "lawak ke? tah hape-hape" tak kesahla. asalkan saya hangat=happy+sangat. Saya happy sebab berjumpa dgn Dr Faidzal, Hosp Segamat. hopefully dapat come out with a good proposal. chaiyok! Saya penat sebab drive from 8am-4pm today. KL-Tangkak-Segamat-JB. kaki rasa nak patah. tengkuk macam nak terkehel. ma-bab-pu-ya-tuk = maaf sebab merapu, saya ngantuk.
Bye.

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Saje je..

It's going to be a long week.
I have a commitment in Johor.
Wish me luck.
Positive energy, please re-enter my body.
That's it for now. Packing2 baju dulu ye.

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"You"

Maybe you think you're funny, Maybe you think you're cool, Maybe you think you're smart. I'm sorry, but you're not.

I don't know who you are and I didn't want to know about you.

You're so pathetic and immature. You're what some might call the "backseat driver" of life, The one who knows exactly what everyone else is doing wrong and how they should go about fixing it. U always trying to change everyone else. While you're helping others out and pushing them into the limelight, you're left in the background to inhale the dirty smoke of their success.

Why are some men so childish? Geram betul.

Btw dah lega.

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Cik Kelisa

Pagi tadi berlaku satu cubaan menghina dan merendah-rendahkan Cik Kelisa (No Kad Pengenalan : ****** -** - 4923). FYI, Cik Kelisa saya masih single and available. Bukan Puan Kelisa ye. Cik Kelisa@Cik Lisa. Reason dia single sampai sekarang sebab dia taknak langkah bendul tuan dia.

Once upon a time..

Bangun pagi, gosok gigi, pergi sekolah cikgu benci, semua kawan iri hati, sedih lagi hari ini. (masa tadika cukup suka nyanyi lagu2 yang takde kene mengena macam ni). Ok bukan, bangun pagi, gosok gigi, mandi-mandi, angkat kaki. Angkat kaki pergi ***Medical Centre (nama terpaksa dirahsiakan). Nak follow up samples that have been given to the specialists few months ago. As usual, topik perbualan memang selalu tersasar jauh dari tujuan sebenar.

Saya : How was the results Dr?

Specialist : So far ok. Takda masalah. We get negative results from all the test. Positive not yet. And yup, all patients with negative fFN result did not deliver preterm. All fine. You don't worry. Kalau ada masalah nanti sampai rumah i cari u. Tak tido malam u nak solve kan problem. Hahahaha (gelak sakan)

Saya : Hek Hek Hek Hek (gelak paksa). Scary nye bunyik Dr. Hek Hek (gelak paksa lagi)

Specialist : Hahahaha (gelak sakan lagi). I letih sikit today. Smlm on call. Eh u duduk mana ye? I tak larat la Mardhiah duduk area sini. Banyak sangat perompak. Tak berani nak balik malam-malam. Tapi susa cos i selalu on call kan.

Saya : Ohh i duduk ***. Skarang mana2 pon ada perompak Dr. Memang takut. Tengok la masa raya nanti camana. Makin menjadi-jadi.

Bla bla bla bla..borak lagi dan lagi..dari cerita pasal perompak tiba-tiba cerita pasal H1N1 second attack. Tah camana tah sampai ke situ pon saya kurang pasti. Dekat 1/2 jam dalam bilik Dr, terus gi car park and..

Saya : Eh pakcik, saya tak suruh sape2 pun lap kereta saya (Taula cik lisa dah lama tak mandi kan. memang banyak daki2 kelihatan. nak2 kulit asal cik lisa pulak putih melepak)

Pakcik : Bagus ni spray ni. Kereta ngko ni dah kotor sangat. Pakai spray biasa tak hilang punye.

Saya (sedikit runsing+takut tengok perangai pakcik ni sebenarnya) : Oh ye ke. Tapi takpa la pakcik. Saya nak cepat ni. Terima kasih ye. Lain kali je ye.

Pakcik (dengan gaya pakse-pakse..drug addict ke?) : Beli je la spray ni. Bukan mahal pon. RM10 je. Ngko tak menyesal punya.

Saya (agak stress sebab da berpeluh-peluh nak masuk kereta tak bole) : Takpe la pakcik. Saya betul-betul nak cepat ni. Terima kasih eh *Masuk kereta, start enjin, and bukak tingkap sedikit supaya tak nampak kurang ajar. Baru nak angkat tangan..*

Pakcik : Ek eleh ngko ni. Kereta kecik pon nak berlagak. Kereta ngko tu da kotor sangat. Hantar basuh tak hilang punye. Ek eleh..bla bla bla (kutuk cik lisa dan tuan cik lisa dengan muka yang nak makan penampar)

Saya (naseb baik pakcik ni tua, so cakap beralas sikit) : Haih pakcik. Bukan berlagak. Saya ni mana ada duit nak beli spray. Nak beli kereta kecik ni pon tersedak-sedak. Kalau da pakai kereta besar nanti saya beli spray pakcik 10 k. Terima kasih ye *angkat tangan and pecut laju* (dalam hati : alamak patutnya aku tambah lagi satu ayat. Btw, saya memang suka tengok kereta saya kotor2 mcm ni. Ada aku kesah? Hehe. Saja nak bagi dramatik sket)

Tak tau la pakcik tu paham ke tak sebab muka dia laloq semacam. Tapi yang pasti dia terus bebel-bebel even lepas cik lisa memecut pergi. Cik lisa sure sedih kena kutuk camtu. Tau la cik lisa tu kecik, tapi cik lisa ni banyak berjasa kat tuan dia. I lap u cik lisa. Patutnya kena bagi komisyen sikit pada cik lisa. Singgah shell tol jalan duta, kasi cik lisa minum ice lemon tea perisa petroleum.

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Robin Sharma

Hello everyone. Very excited to share this. "The Greatness Guide". Well it’s from Robin Sharma, the awesome author who wrote bestseller, The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari. Robin Sharma has distilled the lessons he has learned as a consultant to such organizations as Microsoft, Nike, FedEx, and NASA to show how following his universal principles will lead to exceptional business and personal growth and performance. His messages was inspiring and refreshing. I adore this man so much! Here are a few of my favorite topics. Tadaa~

The Two Magic Words
"Take a moment and think about the people in your life who need to be cherished, aprreciated and told that their support has been helpful. Offer a heartfelt and enthusiastic Thank You. Those two magic words don't cost anything. But they will make a world of difference"

No Ask No Get
"It never hurts to ask"

I am so blown away by his short, yet focused set of inspirational words!! All the points ring so true to my personal beliefs and desires. Semua-semua topics pun best gila tapi patah pulak jari kalau nak kena type semua kan. Some - Drink coffee with Gandhi, Your 4-min Mile, Shine as Parent, Think like a CEO, The $600 sandwich, Mick Jagger and Reference Points bla bla bla. Btw to Ani, thanks for letting me borrow your Papa Basha book. Hehehe. Good one weih.

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Congratulations Kamal Alan Nathan

Tertarik dengan konsep "anak 1 Malaysia" calon ADUN Hulu Selangor, YB P.Kamalanathan semasa Pilihanraya Kecil Ahad lepas. Nama pon siap ada kombinasi 3 bangsa. Betul-Betul anak 1 Malaysia. Saya sangat kagum. Bukan kagum dengan nama. Bukan kagum dengan parti. Tapi kagum dengan usaha beliau. Bahasa Melayu lancar kalah pengacara Nona mahupun Wanita Hari Ini. Peribahasa tak pernah fail diselitkan di dalam setiap temu bual. Karam Singh Walia pun sedikit tercabar. Lagi menarik, cara beliau bersalam dengan warga tua dan orang kehormat. Cium tangan ala-ala menantu jumpa mertua. Nasib baik berdiri, kalau duduk, mungkin ada possibility untuk beliau bersimpuh. Kira pandai jugakla amik hati other races.

Anyway terpanggil jugak nak comment on certain issues raised by the opposition party :

1. P Kamalanathan kissed Tan Sri Muhyiddin's hands so he kowtows to UMNO. Come on, it is all about respect other cultures. This is what we called 1 Malaysia. What about wearing Baju Melayu? If issue jugak, tak tahu la..
   

1. P Kamalanathan has a fake degree. He published a scanned copy of his degree online as promised to counter such baseless allegations. Hamik nih : http://www.pkamalanathan.com/2010/04/bachelor-of-communications-edithcowan.html
   

So congratulations P.Kamalanathan. Give him a chance to prove that he could serve them the best way he knew how.

P/S : Saya bukan Puteri Umno. Jauh sekali Wanita Umno. Bukan fanatik, tapi sekadar mengambil tahu. Kaji dahulu & nilai la sendiri.

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Edisi Luahan Perasaan

Something happened and I just realized how stupid I am. Please, I am not interested in your gossip and your childish drama. Grow up dear!

I will no longer be walked all over, I will no longer be hurt by anyone or anything. I refuse to let it happen, and I refuse to get close enough to start caring about anything other than what is in my life. My family and my closest friends, are probably my biggest priorities.

Ok lega. Sekian.

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So Cool

Ahahaha! Terjumpa advertisement ni kat blog Rizalman. Adoi so funny yet very creative. "Tear proof Mascara" for those yg frustated with Ricky Martin's sexual orientation. Well yeah he is..cause no straight man can shake their hips like Ricky Martin. This is no suprise. Lol.

No plan for today. Semalam dah terlebih cukup bersuka-ria. Oh maybe malam ni lepak dengan Ani sekejap memandangkan tahap kerinduan kat dia sudah di tahap kronik. Banyak benda nak diceritakan. Miss u hun!

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It's raining..

Alhamdulillah, hari ni hujan lagi. Malam semalam pon hujan jugak. Hujan lebat, sangat lebat. Complete package dengan guruh and kilat sabung-menyabung. Baru nak layan "New in Town" kat StarWorld. As usual, rain is entirely beyond Astro’s control. Ayooo. Tak dapat nak tgk Renee Zelweger bikin havoc at Minnesota.

By the way, terjumpa pic ni at DeviantArt. How good it makes me feel. Really. It made me think that love is very funny. We cant control who we love, or when we love them. But then we got to think like this as well, even how miserably love seems to end, it doesn't mean the ending reveals the history. Even though it hurt really badly, we have to remember how good it makes us feel. It is just not possible to feel sad and angry about the bad ending, if the rest of it felt like a dream. Just move on and hoping the best for the person we love. Hmm. Baru nak feeling sikit, hujan da stop kat luar. hehehe.

Anyhoo, best betul sekali-sekala dapat lepak rumah sorang-sorang. Kak Seri ada je la kat bawah. Tak tau la apa dia buat. Tapi macam busy sebab dengar bunyi kong kang kong kang. Yang lain-lain ada urusan kat luar. Now nak minum coffee and makan cookies sambil tengok DVD Old Dogs. Heee ;) Mungkin akan terlelap sikit sebab genetik kuat tidur dalam DNA memang agak dominant. Malam nanti ada date dengan kesayangan-kesayangan saya. Nak bersuka ria. Masalah, sila pergi jauh-jauh.

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Allure feat 112

Lately ni sangat addicted dgn lagu All Cried Out from Allure feat 112. Sgt oldies tapi sangat best. Enjoy!

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Burst Out

Hari ini terbangun lambat. Last night 4am baru dapat tidur. I think I should join Insomnia Club. Sangat lah melampau tahap insomnia saya 2-3 hari ini. Bangun-bangun terus mandi & bersiap gi Gleneagles Intan Medical Centre sebab nak hantar something kat Lab Manager. Dengan duit yg tinggal berapa sen je dlm poket, sempat lagi melencong minum coffee kat Dome. Sungguh tak sedar diri. Haishh.

Btw, everything was OK until I'm back in office. One of my customers nak beli pipettor tips. Our company tak supply tips pun tapi terpaksa buat baik tolong order kan from Company X (supplier for tips and consumables). Usually berurusan dengan En Omar, but En Omar EL plak. So try je la cakap dengan sorang minah in charge kat marketing department tu. Yang sakit hatinya, kita ni punya la menyahut seruan Pak Lah "budi bahasa budaya kita", tak alih2 minah sorang ni buat perangai pelik. Suara punya perlahan nauzubillah. Mula2 malas nak tegur and cakap macam biasa. Tapi makin lama makin perlahan la plak..

Saya : Ms i cannot hear u la. Can you please speak up?"

Dia : Hmm eh what's the catalogue no? - suara perlahan lagi

Saya (I have to repeat her request more clearly this time. the first time was clear enough actually) : Oh okay. BH ^%$&##. Can u please check either tips tu sesuai dengan Grifols pipette?

Dia : Eh you nak apa sebenarnya ni? You nak i buat apa?

Saya : I just want to check either tips yang we all order tu sesuai tak dengan Grifols pipette

Dia : Kene la try - suara mcm malas2 nak layan

Saya : Oh kat office u ada sample? Maybe i boleh datang your office and try the tips

Dia : Eh tak sure la ade ke tak..Tak tau lah - suara nak marah tak pasal2

Saya : Can you please check the stock for me? - suara sedikit serius

Dia : I x sure la. Actually u nak apa sebenanya? - Bengapkan minah ni. Dah 2 kali tanya nak apa.

Saya : Ms, I'm sorry you are having a bad day but it is not polite to spread your bad day to others. You respect me, I'll respect you. Boleh tak kalau bercakap tu berbudi bahasa sikit. Tak rugi dik kalau hormat orang.

Dia : Masalahnya, u pakai pipette apa ni? I kena la check dulu u pakai brand apa (padahal da bape kali da repeat pipette tu brand Grifols)

Saya : My customer nak beli tips. Our company only supply pipettor. So I ulang sekali lagi ye, I nak mintak tolong you check kan either Grifols pipette, G R I F O L S pipette sesuai tak dengan your tips. Lain kali orang cakap dengar la betul2. S T U P I D"

Hang up. Puas hati. Walaupun satu office dengar, tapi ada aku kesah? Hish panas betul hari ni. Tak pernah marah org on phone macam ni skali.

“The customer is always right” Well, there is a reason for that saying. The customer is not always right, but good customer service is treating her as though she is. Making the customer feel appreciated, even when they are not pleased, is the goal. And that was not accomplished in my experience. What a shame.

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Reality

As we grow up, we learn that the one person that wasn’t supposed to let us down will. We will probably have a broken heart more than once, and it’s harder every time. We’ll break hearts so that we remember how it felt when ours was broke. We will fight with our best friend. We will blame new loves for what old ones did. We will cry because time is passing too fast, and we will eventually lose someone we love.

So take many pictures as we can, and laugh as much as we can, and love like we’ve never been hurt. Because every 60 seconds we spend upset is one minute of happiness we will never get back. Don’t be afraid that our life will end, be afraid it will never begin.

Note : Just a reminder to all my friends and most importantly to myself

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HOLLA

This is my first entry into my blog. Wohooo~ Even though sangat selalu bersikap hangat-hangat tahi ayam but this time i'm quite excited nak bebel-bebel dalam blog. So why exactly I blog? Most of all is the JOY it brings me to write and share photos with friends and family. To be honest, my life in the past few days has turned upside down. I need to keep myself busy so that i can move on. So ya, blogging, working, jogging, lepak-ing, reading, sleeping, shopping. Hectic isn't it? Lol!

Oh okay GTG. Mandi-manda. Byebye.

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