Isk isk isk hwaaaaa sob sob sob srottttt (nangis tersedu-sedu dalam hati) Hwaa sunyinye. Bukan sebab tak ada aktiviti on weekend. Bukan sebab mama pinjam kereta yang menyebabkan saya patah kaki di hujung minggu (kaki tak berapa nak patah sebab kereta acap masih berfungsi dengan baik untuk bawak saya dan ani lepak minum). Bukan juga sebab tak ada steady boyfriend. Jauh sekali sebab tak ada anak. Ok merepek.
Sunyi sebab abang-abang kandung yang bukan dikandungi saya, tapi dikandungi mak saya dah berpindah jauh di rantau orang. A ah exaggerate je. Takda la jauh sangat. My first brother, abglong now working at Indonesia. Abgngah pulak kerja with Kementerian Penerangan di JB. And abgcik baru start kerja dengan Pakatan Arkitek Berhad, in charge project kat JB. Whatt?? Bosannn. But more to sedih sebenarnya. Tapi saya kental. Tak perlu buat muka kememeh. Cukup dengan maintain cool dan buat2 happy sebab dapat conquer remote astro.
It still seems so strange to have had my brothers all my life and then no more. Puffff just like that. Masing-masing dengan urusan sendiri. My brothers always went above and beyond the call of duty to help me. Dari belikan roti canai and milo ais (mcd sometimes), settlekan urusan bil 2 saya yg berlambak-lambak, helping me when Cik Kelisa meragam atau langgar dan dilanggar kereta orang..NAME IT..semua pon pernah buat. They are my favorite peoples in the whole world. l know I have to learn to let go and not rely so much on others now. I guess I crave for love and a close family so much that I feel sad and depressed that my own siblings are moving away. I'm so not ready for this.
mr dugong (long), debab (ngah), and pak tam (abgcik)..kerja je la kat KL! Bukan bestpon duduk JB and Indon tuh..haih. Takada orang nak panggil saya "birat" lagi. Sob sob.
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Sunyi sebab abang-abang kandung yang bukan dikandungi saya, tapi dikandungi mak saya dah berpindah jauh di rantau orang. A ah exaggerate je. Takda la jauh sangat. My first brother, abglong now working at Indonesia. Abgngah pulak kerja with Kementerian Penerangan di JB. And abgcik baru start kerja dengan Pakatan Arkitek Berhad, in charge project kat JB. Whatt?? Bosannn. But more to sedih sebenarnya. Tapi saya kental. Tak perlu buat muka kememeh. Cukup dengan maintain cool dan buat2 happy sebab dapat conquer remote astro.
It still seems so strange to have had my brothers all my life and then no more. Puffff just like that. Masing-masing dengan urusan sendiri. My brothers always went above and beyond the call of duty to help me. Dari belikan roti canai and milo ais (mcd sometimes), settlekan urusan bil 2 saya yg berlambak-lambak, helping me when Cik Kelisa meragam atau langgar dan dilanggar kereta orang..NAME IT..semua pon pernah buat. They are my favorite peoples in the whole world. l know I have to learn to let go and not rely so much on others now. I guess I crave for love and a close family so much that I feel sad and depressed that my own siblings are moving away. I'm so not ready for this.
mr dugong (long), debab (ngah), and pak tam (abgcik)..kerja je la kat KL! Bukan bestpon duduk JB and Indon tuh..haih. Takada orang nak panggil saya "birat" lagi. Sob sob.
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